Above all else...

"Above all else, 

GUARD YOUR HEART, 

for it is the wellspring of life."

Proverbs 4:23

That is probably one of my favorite verses. it just hits home with me. 

I have not been one to guard my heart. at all. 

I give it away too easily, let people in too soon, open up too much

I expect the same back, but that doesn't always happen.

When a new guy comes along..

I tend to 'put all my eggs in one basket' 

then when its time to move on cause he obviously isn't the one I am supposed to be with- 

I end up leaving an 'egg' behind... 

giving a little piece of my heart away, 

     - a piece I won't be able to get back.

Now, I'm not saying I fall in love with every guy I ever meet, 

   ...I'm not even certain that I have ever even really been in love-

but there were times I have thought  "Hmm..could this be him, the one that will last?"

obviously not, as I am still alone, and flyin' solo...

(which is getting really old, but this isn't supposed to be a pity party post)

I am realizing this is not fair to the man that God has planned for me to marry- I need to guard my heart, so that one day, when I finally do meet Mr. Right- I will have a whole heart, full of love waiting to give away to the one who will accept it, and protect it...

It is definitely easier said than done...and I'm a work in progress

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"Darling did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time

...
Darling did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
And keep your loving eyes only for me

 ...

Darling did you know I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And darling when I say
Till death do us part
I'll mean it with all of my heart
Now and always faithful to you"

-Rebecca St.James 

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